I learned something about myself today. When I am up against something I don't want to do or is hard for me to do I go into my happy place.
I had to have a ultra sound of some lymph nodes and they decided to do a biopsy on one of them . Last time I had a biopsy they took me off the heart monitor because the alarm kept going off saying I was not breathing. Today when I was done I had been to my happy place again. They took my blood pressure afterwards and it was 105 over 56. The asked me if it was always that low. I said no. I cried before it, but not during it. When it was over I started crying again. Then when I got home Kail was here waiting and I just broke down and cried some more. I told her I was fine that it was a kind of uncontrolled crying from having to make my mind and body be in so much control and in my happy place. I kind of make my mind go blank. I should have the results by Thursday. The Doctor that did the biopsy procedure said that it did not look very significant. I hope she is right. I told her when I have been drawing straws lately I have not been drawing the good ones.
Dan always trying to cheer me up asked... WHO WANTS ICE CREAM? He is my giant cheer leader.
always telling me how tough I am and what a great job I am doing with it all.
You are a tough cookie mom. I'm not surprised you finally let some of that built up steam out. You've been SUCH a trooper through all of this. I'm glad to hear the tech didn't seem to be alarmed and that will know in two days. I wish I could have been there to give you a BIG, BIG hug and kiss. I love you mom!!!
ReplyDeleteP.S. Is it just me, or does dad have a sweet tooth all the time now? :)
Cris, you amaze me with your strength. I found this verse and it reminded me of you. II Corinthians 12.
ReplyDelete9 And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast [a]about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10 Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with [b]insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.
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David