Tuesday, November 8, 2011

go to your happy place

I learned something about myself today. When I am up against something I don't want to do or is hard for me to do I go into my happy place.
I had to have a ultra sound of some lymph nodes and they decided to do a biopsy on one of them . Last time I had a biopsy they took me off the heart monitor because the alarm kept going off saying I was not breathing. Today when I was done I had been to my happy place again. They took my blood pressure afterwards and it was 105 over 56. The asked me if it was always that low. I said no. I cried before it, but not during it. When it was over I started crying again. Then when I got home Kail was here waiting and I just broke down and cried some more. I told her I was fine that it was a kind of uncontrolled crying from having to make my mind and body be in so much control and in my happy place. I kind of make my mind go blank. I should have the results by Thursday. The Doctor that did the biopsy procedure said that it did not look very significant. I hope she is right. I told her when I have been drawing straws lately I have not been drawing the good ones.
Dan always trying to cheer me up asked... WHO WANTS ICE CREAM?  He is my giant cheer leader.
always telling me how tough I am and what a great job I am doing with it all.

3 comments:

  1. You are a tough cookie mom. I'm not surprised you finally let some of that built up steam out. You've been SUCH a trooper through all of this. I'm glad to hear the tech didn't seem to be alarmed and that will know in two days. I wish I could have been there to give you a BIG, BIG hug and kiss. I love you mom!!!

    P.S. Is it just me, or does dad have a sweet tooth all the time now? :)

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  2. Cris, you amaze me with your strength. I found this verse and it reminded me of you. II Corinthians 12.
    9 And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast [a]about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10 Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with [b]insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

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  3. Hello,
    I have a question about your blog. Please email me!
    Thanks,
    David

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