LIVING with stage IV breast cancer: Bad news ...... Good News

My Doctor called with the results of my biopsy from this last surgery. She is so kind I am so thankful to have her for my Doctor. Dan and I were on our way over to Bend so I put her on speaker phone so that Dan could hear all that she had to say and we could both ask her questions. I think that there is alway more questions than answers in this situation.

She said that the report showed the cancer and that it showed that she was not able to get any clear margins of good tissue. This is what both Dan and I epected her to say. After the surgery she said that she had to remove a little muscle and follow a tentacle to remove it. That it went in between 2 ribs so she was not able to get the margins she had wanted as she did not want to scrap on the bone. Of course we wanted to hear ALL CLEAR, but we knew that was not going to be the case. As soon as I am all healed up I will start 6 1/2 weeks of daily radiation designed just for me. We thought the Chemo last year was the scorched earth policy I guess that there is really a scorched earth policy :)

Dan and I have talked alot about it. The radiation oncologist says I have a 60% chance of getting it all this time and never have another reaccurance. That sounds so much better than the other way around and only have a 40% chance.

It got us to talking about Noah and how everyone around him had probably thought that there was a 0% chance that it was going to rain for 40 days and 40 nights. Noah trusted in the Lord and built that beautiful Ark. So if you are looking at precentages that on did not look so good. 0% ...... but with God all things are possible. So that makes my 60% look pretty great.

I am planning on not getting this again. Have I heard the Lord speak this to me directly? No I have not I just think of all he has done for me in the past and trusting for it to be true today also. He really loves us all that much. I am going to trust in his love for me. Jesus Christ the same yesterday, Today and Forever.

Back in 1988 I had a mamogram that they found suspicious lump in left breast . The one that I had had cancer in 3 years prior to that.. Oh ya that made my heart beat fast. I had to wait a whole weekend to go back in to get another mamogram and see a surgeon. In the mean time my mother inlaw Marge called from The Dallas Oregon and said she had been praying for me and that the Lord had given her a scripture and that she was to call me and tell me what it was. She also said Lord how will she know it is really from you. Marge told me that some one else would tell me the exact same scripture. Well about a hour later my life long bousim buddy Rose called me and said that she had been reading her bible and that the Lord pointed out a scripture to her and that she was to call me and tell me that it was from him to me.