my kids

I think about my kids alot , my husband and my grand kids. I have to keep the fear at bay. I love the scripture. " Perfect Love Casteth Out All Fear"  1St John 4-18.
I see this every day when I walk down my stairs. My daughter Rachael painted it for me on a GIANT canvas and it reminds me not to be afraid that the Lord loves me and his perfect love will not allow anything to happen to me that he has not ok"d. He is watching over me. I love this and it gives me great comfort.
I still worry about .. what if I don't make it this time. How will it effect them. We all have to die sometime. I want to be here as long as I can to be a part of their lives for many more years. I want to see my grandkids graduate from high school and get married someday. I pray that I get that chance.
I know sooo many people who wanted the same and they did not get it. I feel very blessed to have made as long as I have with having the first round of breast cancer when I was 25. My kids were so little that had I died then they would probably not even remember me. Yes Lord I am thankful for these years.