Some days just stink

Wednesday Dan went with me to my treatment, because on Wednesdays the doctor meets with us and tells us how the treatment is going and what the future plan for my treatment is.
This week they said that they are getting ready to narrow the scope of my treatment starting next Tuesday. It will be just the area of the last tumor. This is good as the skin under my arm is starting to be red and blistered so it will get to start healing while go after harder the other area. They have been doing that area also all along. Now it is just going to be even more focused and stronger in that area. I knew when I was done I would be going back to the oncologist that could possible suggest that I try a new chemo. I have been and continue to be not mentally prepared at all to do this. The Doctor called my other oncologist and talked to her and cam back to say that at this time she is thinking that she would not suggest chemo. I was sitting there with my head to just about explode trying not to just burst into tears and fall apart like a big baby. It was like I had eaten something sour and the pain you get behind your ears was growing in pressure more and more. It actually hurt. I know that she could still suggest something, but to know that she is leaning on not really brings me hope that I will not have to do that  again. This week has been a emotional one. I had one friend pass away from liver cancer on Christmas, one having a mastectomy today, Rachael still has her drains in, Kail is almost done with part 2 of her reconstruction. I think that my plate just dripped off the sides today and all I wanted to do this evening was cry. You guessed it I am tired, to bed with me.

Dan and I are going to go and celebrate at the beach when this is done . I am really looking forward to being done. Should be done around January 18th. That is what they are saying right now.

Thursday:
I was out showing a home today  and it had a real stink to it. I actually told my clients that I would have to go out of the house as the smell was making me feel real sick. That does not happen often. Smells are making me kind of sensitive right now.
The first home had pet hair balls that were so big laying around the house that if they had legs I would have thought they had a gerbil infestation. That one smelled also, but not like the last one.